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  “Finally. Something we can agree on.”

  He leaned back in his seat and watched her as she dug into her burger again. Something about her bothered him, and he really couldn’t put his finger on what it was. But as she ignored him and ate her dinner, he remembered how she’d leaped to Mari’s defense. How she’d read Vickie the riot act and forced the waitress to admit that Mari just wasn’t the kind of woman her enemies were making her out to be.

  A surge of gratitude rushed through him, swamping the mistrust that still echoed inside him. Lily had defended his child and Ron had responded by skewering her. What did that say about him?

  Hell, if his mother were here, she’d give him that fish-eyed glare she used to use on him when he was a kid.

  “Look,” he said, giving in to the urge to make amends, “I want you to know how much I appreciate you standing up for Mari the way you did.”

  Blond eyebrows lifted. “How hard was that?”

  “What?”

  “To be nice to me.”

  He frowned and reached for his own burger. Less decorated than hers, it was still tasty and sitting there getting cold. “Wasn’t hard.”

  “Then one would think you’d be able to pull it off more often, wouldn’t one?”

  “One might.”

  Her lips twitched. “A hardheaded man.”

  “That’s been said before.”

  “I’m not surprised.”

  He took a bite of his burger then chewed and swallowed before speaking again. “I’m not sure about you, Lily Cunningham.”

  She smiled and winked at him. “Good.”

  “Good?”

  “If you were sure of me, I’d be predictable. Boring.”

  “Stuffy?” He prodded, reminding her of the word she’d used to describe him.

  Apparently she remembered very well what she’d called him, because she looked at him now and grinned. Her brown eyes sparkled and good humor fairly shimmered in the air around her. “Oh, very few people can pull stuffy off with any degree of success.”

  “And I’m one of them?”

  “Yes,” she said slowly, thoughtfully as she reached for her shake again. “But I see a glimmer of hope shining around you, Ron Bingham.”

  “Is that so?” She kept twirling the straw through the ice cream, drawing his gaze to her red polished nails and the sapphire ring on her right hand.

  “Oh yes.” She sucked at her straw, and Ron told himself not to notice the pucker of her full lips. For all the good it did him. “With a little bit of effort,” she said, “you could be destuffied.”

  “Not even a word.”

  “It is if I say it is.”

  He smiled in spite of his efforts not to. “The de-stuffifying process sounds painful.”

  “It won’t hurt a bit.”

  Ron wasn’t too sure of that. He had a feeling that spending too much time with Lily could potentially be very painful. She made him think too much. Feel too much. Dream too much.

  And for a man who’d been emotionally asleep for ten long years, waking up was not only painful…it was dangerous.

  Over the weekend, Lily had had every intention of washing her car and then planting new flowers in the pots outside her front door. Well, the car was still dirty, but there were a few empty nursery pots scattered at her feet.

  She sighed, tipped her head back and stretched the kinks out of her back while staring up at the cloud-covered sky. Looked as though a storm might be coming in and she found herself hoping it would happen. Not only did she enjoy the fabulous light show of electrical storms, but rain might take the edge off the humidity.

  Smiling to herself, she bent down, blew her hair back out of her face and grabbed the sides of the huge, terra-cotta pot and gave it a pull.

  It didn’t budge.

  “Oh for heaven’s sake.” She stood up, frowned at the damn thing, then bent over to give it another yank. Still nothing. Although she was pretty sure she’d felt something in her back yell “uncle.”

  “Maybe I should have put the pot on the steps first.” She shook her head, disgusted at her own lack of foresight. “Brilliant, Lily. Really brilliant.”

  Purple, red and white petunias billowed over the edges of the pot and tumbled along the sides in wild profusion. They looked cheerful—and for the moment—healthy. Of course, they wouldn’t look that way for long.

  Lily had a black thumb.

  Every plant she’d ever bought had died a horrible death. She either underwatered or overwatered—didn’t seem to matter. She swore that when she walked through the local nursery choosing plants, you could almost hear the flowers shrieking, Not me, don’t take me!

  She loved having flowers in her yard. Loved coming home to their color and scent. She simply had no talent for it. But that had never stopped her from trying.

  “Until now,” she muttered, kicking the side of the heavy pot. Her white tennis shoe didn’t protect her toe, which only served her right, she thought as she hopped indelicately and bit down on her lip to keep from cursing.

  It was a terrible habit, and she’d tried to put a lid on her foul language, especially since she’d moved into this neighborhood that was absolutely crawling with children. On that thought, she forgot about the stubborn pot and turned around to look out at the tree-shaded street. The Johnson twins, age seven, were popping caps with a hammer on their curb. Lily shook her head. Any moment now, one or both of them would be crying and sucking on a smashed finger. The Danville girl, at nine, was concentrating on a fierce game of hop-scotch—who knew kids still played that?—with her best friend. A couple of doors down, thirteen-year-old Kevin Hanks was busily mowing lawns for spending money.

  Lily glanced at her own grass. Time to hire Kevin again before the neighbors started complaining. Honestly, moving to a house had been such a change from her loft apartment that sometimes she was just overwhelmed by it all. But bottom line—it was worth it. She loved having her own home. A place she could decorate or not. A place where she could practice her scandalously bad gardening skills. A place where she could sit on the front porch and listen to the sounds of children’s laughter.

  A tiny ache pierced her heart, and she lifted one hand to her chest as if she could somehow smooth it away. Lily sighed a little as old dreams drifted through her mind and then dissolved again. She’d always wanted a family. Children of her own. But when she’d found out that wouldn’t be happening, she’d tried to make peace with it.

  At first she’d thought of adoption. Then when her husband had left her, she’d let go of that thought as well. It hadn’t been common at that time for single women to adopt, and after the disaster of her marriage, getting married again wasn’t even a consideration. So Lily’d forgotten about her old dreams and had tried to build new ones.

  Generally speaking, she’d done a hell of a job. Top of her game in the PR business, she’d had everything that most people worked their whole lives for. And she’d tossed it aside without a second thought the moment she’d had a chance to come here.

  “It was a good choice,” she said, speaking aloud to make sure her subconscious heard her. “No matter what, it was a good thing, moving here.”

  With that she turned around to face her enemy again. The overflowing pot of petunias that would, most likely, remain on the sidewalk for all eternity…or until the latest flowers died and she could empty the dirt and start over. “There’s just no way I’m gonna be able to move you.”

  “Need some help?”

  Surprise had her spinning around, and her heart had already done a weird little twist and roll before she realized the man talking to her wasn’t Ron Bingham. That in itself was a surprise. Every time she turned around lately, that man was there. As if he were keeping a wary eye on her.

  But today, she had the police strolling up her front walk. Or at least, the sheriff. Bryce Collins gave her a quiet smile, and she forced herself to return it. He seemed a nice enough man. Tall and broad-shouldered, his gray eyes were always calm
and steady, as if he could reassure people with a simple glance. And maybe that worked on most people.

  However, it wouldn’t be working on Lily. Bryce Collins was going after Mari. Making it seem to the people of Binghamton that she was actually guilty. And from what she’d heard, he should have known better. Mari and Bryce had been as good as engaged several years ago—until Mari had gone off to medical school.

  And maybe Bryce was just nursing a grudge, but whatever his reason, it seemed ridiculous to Lily that he could suspect a woman he’d once loved.

  “Was driving by. Saw you kick that pot,” he was saying in a soft, amused tone. “Figured you might want a little help moving it.”

  Lily stared at him for a long minute. Across the street, the Johnson boys were still snapping caps, the sharp, staccato bursts of sound like an overgrown clock ticking off seconds. Kevin’s lawnmower hummed in the background, and at the end of the block a car engine revved. A perfectly ordinary summer day.

  Except for the fact that she had the town Sheriff offering to play landscaper.

  “Shouldn’t you be out arresting Mari or something?” she snapped and instantly regretted it. Antagonizing the man was not the way to win him over to the truth.

  Bryce’s gray eyes narrowed, full lips thinned into a grim slash across his face. A muscle in his jaw twitched.

  “I’m sorry,” Lily said quickly, lifting one dirt smudged hand to smooth her hair back from her face. “I tend to say whatever I’m thinking and, believe me, that’s gotten me into a lot of trouble over the years.”

  His expression didn’t soften. “Can’t imagine why.” Sarcasm dripped off every word, and Lily winced.

  “Right. Look.” She took a step forward, ignoring the ache in her toe. “You seem like a nice, intelligent, reasonable man…”

  “But?”

  “But—” Lily threw both hands high and let them slap down to her thighs “—I do not understand how a reasonable man could possibly suspect Mari of anything criminal.”

  “Ms. Cunningham, I’m—”

  “Lily.”

  He caught himself, nodded and said, “Lily. I’m not going to discuss an ongoing investigation with you. That’s police business.”

  “Investigation.” She snorted the word. “That you should be investigating Mari at all is criminal.”

  He tensed and that muscle in his jaw twitched again.

  “Fine,” she said, “we won’t talk about it. But you should be doing some serious thinking, Sheriff.”

  Finally, a flicker of amusement crossed his face. “Is that so?”

  “Yes. You should be thinking about who would want to make Mari look guilty.”

  Amusement fled, and once again his gray eyes were steady and cool. He met her gaze for a long, silent moment before he said, “Trust me, ma’am. I’m doing a lot of thinking.”

  Lily watched him closely. There was more here than met the eye. Despite how it might look to the rest of the town, Lily now had the distinct impression that a large part of Bryce Collins knew damn well that Mari wasn’t involved in the drug ring. His problem was, she guessed, that being sheriff, he was forced to run down every possibility.

  Whether he believed it or not.

  Lily nodded slowly, took a deep breath and then let it out again. “Okay, Sheriff,” she said softly, “I will trust you.”

  One corner of his mouth lifted. “Thanks.”

  “For now,” she added, just so he would know that if she thought he was barking up the wrong tree again, she’d be right there to tell him so.

  He smiled and gave her a look of approval. And Lily thought that once this whole mess was behind them, she and Bryce Collins might be able to be friends.

  “So,” he said. “You want some help moving that pot?”

  They might have their differences, but Lily was no dummy. Why turn down a big, strong man when he’s offering help? “You get that pot up onto the porch—and the matching one, too—and I’ll pour iced tea.”

  “You’ve got a deal.” Bryce walked to the first pot and stared down at the rioting petunias. “Look real pretty, don’t they?”

  “Yes,” Lily said on a resigned sigh. “But that’s only because they don’t realize just how close death is.”

  “Does anybody?”

  “Guess not,” she said, shivering as a small chill crawled along her spine. “I’ll go get that tea.”

  Chapter Four

  Ron thought he was just a little too old to be staying up all night thinking about a great pair of legs and big brown eyes.

  Apparently, though, his body didn’t agree.

  Damn it, Lily Cunningham was making him nuts. And that wasn’t an easy thing to pull off. He was known throughout Kentucky as one hardheaded son of a bitch. When it came to business, Ron wrote the book on how to be focused. How to win by wearing your opponent down. How to never surrender. Never let the other guy see you sweat.

  Well, he was sweating now.

  And it had nothing to do with business.

  Maybe it had to do with being trapped in the damn condo he’d thought was such a great idea a year ago. Smaller than the house he’d shared with Violet—the place where they’d raised their kids and laughed and loved—the condo was supposed to be easier on him. No memories to cloud his mind. No mementos of years gone by to tug at his heart and make his soul ache.

  Instead, the place bugged the hell out of him.

  For the exact reason that there were no memories there. It was empty. Devoid of character, charm, life. It was a place to sleep and eat and escape. It wasn’t his home. He’d lost his home when he’d lost Violet.

  Grumbling to himself, Ron sipped his coffee and moved out through the French doors to the balcony leading off the small dining room. The trees were still dripping water from last night’s storm. Drops fell in a staccato rhythm from shiny green leaves and sounded like dozens of heartbeats.

  How long had it been since there’d been another heartbeat in his house, he wondered. But he didn’t even have to guess. He knew exactly how long. Since Violet died ten years before.

  Oh, he was no monk. He’d never been the kind of man to go for long stretches without the company of a woman. Most of his life that woman had been Violet. After she died, it had taken nearly a year for him to find the heart or the energy to seek out company. There’d been dinner dates and country weekends. But he’d never taken any of his dates to the house he’d shared with Violet. It would have seemed like a betrayal of everything they’d shared.

  And once he’d moved out and sold that house—leaving behind the gardens Violet had tended with such loving care—he’d gone on as he had been. There were still dates and weekends and women. But none of them had meant enough to him to bring them into his home.

  He’d never even considered it. So why, he wondered, was he imagining Lily here? He could almost see her, standing on the balcony and looking out over the forest behind the condo. If he tried hard enough, he could almost see the morning breeze lift her blond hair off the collar of the pale-green silk robe he imagined her in.

  “Perfect,” he muttered thickly. Now not only was she invading his dreams at night…she was stomping through his daydreams as well. Guilt stabbed at him, and he felt like a cheating husband, which he knew damn well was ridiculous.

  He took a sip of the too-hot coffee and watched a pair of squirrels race across the ground and chase each other up the trunk of a gnarled pine. “Hell, even the squirrels have more of a life than I do.”

  Wincing at the sound of self-pity in his voice, Ron gave a quick look around the emptiness surrounding him, as if reassuring himself there’d been no witnesses. Nope. He was safe.

  He was alone.

  Like always.

  When the phone rang, he lurched for it like a man reaching for a lifeline. Which was just what he was doing. Talking to someone…anyone, was better than being alone with his thoughts.

  “Hello?”

  A voice he didn’t recognize muttered in a harsh whisper,
“Your daughter should be in jail.”

  Ron stiffened, and his hand fisted on the telephone receiver. Slamming his coffee cup down onto the countertop, he snarled, “Who is this?”

  A dial tone answered him.

  He couldn’t even tell if the caller had been male or female. The voice had been nothing more than a scrape of sound. Rubbing one hand across his face, Ron hung up the phone very carefully, because his instinct was to crush the damn thing in his hands. This was getting out of control. And there didn’t seem to be a damn thing he could do about it.

  Frustration bubbled to life inside him and he fought it down. He’d never been one to sit on the sidelines and watch as the world went by. And, damn it, he wouldn’t start now.

  Making up his mind, he headed for the bedroom to get dressed.

  The clinic was quiet.

  Only the receptionist sat at her desk, and she smiled at Ron as he stepped inside.

  “Morning, Mr. Bingham. Here to see Mari?”

  “No,” he said, already headed down the hall. “Don’t mind me, Heather. I can find my own way.”

  And he wouldn’t have to explain why he was here so early in the morning to see the PR director. His footsteps were muffled on the carpeting, and he walked even more quietly as he passed his daughter’s office.

  He stopped at Lily’s doorway. Naturally the door was open, and since she hadn’t noticed him there yet, he took a moment to watch her.

  She sat at her desk, head bent over a stack of papers. Strange, but he’d never really thought about her actually working. Stupid, he supposed, but usually when he stopped by, she wasn’t in her office. She was running all over the clinic, sticking her nose into everything.

  Yet bright and early on a Monday morning, here she was, diligently concentrating on…whatever. She wore a sleeveless dark-red dress with a wide collar. Draped over the back of her chair was a soft, matching sweater. Her blond hair swung down on the sides of her face and her lips worried the tip of a pen as she studied the papers in front of her. Her nose looked pink and he guessed she’d gotten some sun over the weekend. Instantly he wondered where she’d been, what she’d been doing and who she’d been doing it with.